Living the Journey

Back to school: state spurs cutbacks

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Wed, 19 Aug 2009 18:34:00 +0000

by Shannon Barry
Milpitas Post

Posted: 08/12/2009 02:45:27 PM PDT

As Milpitas students prepare to head back to the classroom on Aug. 24 the harsh reality that families in the city and around the state will face is a transition from the once-evolving educational programs now scaling back to basics.

In the latest chapter of California's ongoing fiscal woes, Gov. Arnold Schwarzenegger passed a budget on July 28 with a number of line-item cuts meant to close a $24-billion hole.

The cuts to education were lower than some of the previous local projected deficits, Superintendent Karl Black said, since the numbers closely followed the May revise.

"We had a heads up on where they were going," he said.

Acting ahead of time to what they knew would be an undoubtedly dire outcome, two months ago the Milpitas Unified School Board of Education approved making $400,000 in cuts in three areas cutting an assistant principal at the elementary school level; canceling summer school programs with the exception of the high school, Special Education and Stepping Up to Algebra classes; and canceling Community Day School, instead housing a self-contained program to take its place at the district office behind Calaveras Hills High School. This came in addition to the approximately $2 million in budget cuts for 2009-10 already approved by the Board of Education.

After all these cuts, Black said the district still foresees a $6-million deficit during the next two years.

"It's pretty devastating for public education and for us," he responded.

"This is the worst budget for the state of California in terms of education."

So as families and students gear up for the 2009-10 school year, here are some of the changes Black said they can expect to see within the district:

Program changes

-An increase of classroom sizes to more than 30 students in third-grade classes, as well as ninth-grade math and English.

-Charging fees for busing kindergarten to third-graders, with the exception of special education students and Title I children which includes those who are enrolled in the Federal Free or Reduced Lunch Program. The cost will be $2 a day per student, a $360 total for a 180-day school year. Although the fee may seem minimal, Black recognizes it as a hardship.

"To go from zero to $360 is obviously tough on the parents," he said. "This is the first time we've ever gone down this road of charging. We'll see how many people sign up."

-Eliminating the elementary school music program. There will instead be an outside, fee-based program that will cost $30 a month per student.

-Closing the Milpitas High School swimming pool.

-Continuing to sheer away from supporting other Milpitas athletic programs.

Managerial cuts, consolidations

In addition to cutting an assistant principal at the elementary school level, Black said there are other managerial cuts that will further the consolidation of different services within the district.

Parents and students can expect the loss of:

-A counselor at the high school level. There is now one counselor for 800 kids at Milpitas High.

-A school resource officer.

-Custodial staff, including one custodian, some grounds-people and secretaries.

-One librarian to oversee the entire district.

Even though the school district has been slashing funding to numerous sources in recent months Black only expects the list of cutbacks to grow.

"That's just the start of it," he said after listing next year's changes. "We've made so many cuts in the district, we're just providing basics. ... I hate to say it, but more than likely it's going to get more and more difficult. Our quality of education ... the services we will provide, will be less and less."

And when the services do come to the chopping block, Black said they are made "across the board."

Reacting to the growing fiscal difficulties, district officials will soon look at taking other actions. In November, residents can expect to see a survey about the possibility of a parcel tax. If the approval rating looks favorable Black said they have hopes to begin a campaign in the spring. On the other hand, if they garner little support, they will have to "sit down and see what we have." Other than cutting programs further, Black said, "that's our only way of receiving funds."

Even though older residents may no longer have children going through the system, he said there are crucial factors they should understand about living in a city that maintains a strong school district.

"Strong schools raise property values," he said. "New families want to come to a city that is ... well-funded. That's why we have to go out to our voters."

In recent years, even during the budget fiasco, Milpitas Unified School District has accrued a number of awards. Among the list, Community Day School was honored during the 2004-05 school year for having the "best program" in the state of California; only two schools out of 365 Community Day schools throughout the state were honored. Rancho Milpitas Middle School was selected as one of only four middle schools throughout California to receive the "School to Watch" recognition in 2004-05. And throughout the years, Thomas Russell and Rancho Milpitas middle schools, along with Spangler, William and Zanker Elementary schools have all been selected as California Distinguished Schools.

"If you drive around Milpitas and look at our schools, we have a good curb appeal," Black said. "You look at our test scores for the last seven years and they've been on the rise, along with the awards we've won. To see it little by little go away, mainly because we can't afford them, is very disheartening."

So no matter what cuts the district is forced to make, be it in programs or teaching, custodial and managerial funding, "these are the hardest times that you can imagine for us," Black said. "Whether it's a custodian or ... principal, everybody has an affect on our classroom. It takes a village."

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'Grandma 'Cion' fosters students' growth

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Wed, 05 Aug 2009 23:23:00 +0000

(Photo by Mia Garza/ Foster grandmother Visitacion Custodio assists Evelyn Acevedo, 12, and Jonathan Castro, 10, with reading and writing through the San Andreas Regional Center in San Jose.)

"The connection may not be genetic; Custodio doesn't share a bloodline or family history with them. But her kinship with the children runs deep."

Milpitan receives Spirit of Service Award
by Shannon Barry
Milpitas Post
Posted: 08/05/2009 03:38:14 PM PDT

Evelyn Acevedo, 12, and Jonathan Castro, 10, consider Visitacion Custodio part of their extended family. Each morning that the bus stops at Sylvia Cassell Elementary School during the school year both children rush off, racing one another in the hopes of being the first to hug "Grandma 'Cion" that day.

The connection may not be genetic; Custodio doesn't share a bloodline or family history with them. But her kinship with the children runs deep.

For the last couple years, the Milpitas resident has volunteered hours of weekly support to both developmentally disabled children through the Foster Grandparent Program in an effort to foster their social and academic growth. She began working with Acevedo in 2007 and Castro in 2008 as a volunteer to their teacher Marilyn Etherington through the Santa Clara County Office of Education.

"They offer the extra set of eyes, ears and hands to a teacher," said Mia Garza, of the volunteers in the Foster Grandparent/Senior Companion Program she manages. "I think they really are the grandmas and grandpas ... and I think the children respect them. They really see them as somebody who can be compassionate, but at the same time they should listen and respect."

Participants must be at least 60 years old. Custodio, 81, began serving as a foster grandparent in 2004 while the program was facilitated by Agnews Developmental Center through the Department of Developmental Services. In 2008, San Andreas Regional Center took over the facilitation of the program through the Department of Developmental Services.

Etherington explained that both children's skills have developed tremendously since Custodio began working with them. Etherington cited the progress Acevedo has made since she began teaching her four years ago. At the time, Acevedo couldn't read, write her name, relied on counting blocks for math problems and used sign language as her sole means of communication. So when Custodio began volunteering, she tried communicating with Acevedo in different ways. She was determined to further the child's skills, no matter how much work it took.

Two years later, Acevedo can read, write her full name and use a calculator.

"I am so glad that I helped a part of her growth," Custodio said.

In recognition of her accomplishments as a foster grandparent, Custodio was one of seven people who received a Spirit of Service Award from the Corporation for National and Community Service on June 23 in San Francisco. She was one of 400 nominees between seven different programs.

Of her award, Custodio explained her shock: "I was so happy and I still don't know what to say."

Serving as a foster grandparent was a natural choice for Custodio since "I see myself as a grandparent." Prior to volunteering, she was caring for her daughter's newly born son who inherited a developmental disability. She was so successful and compassionate in these efforts that her daughter suggested she turn her passion into volunteerism. Given the time and ability, well into retirement, Custodio made a pact with herself: "I promised myself that I will continue as long as I have my life and strength."

Since then, she has successfully moved forward in life, in a number of different ways.

Custodio said working with Acevedo and Castro has given her knowledge that she may have never received, allowing her to bridge barriers between herself and her grandson who is now 10 years old.

"The one thing that grandma has said to me is this program gives me purpose," Garza said. "I always tell her, 'You give me purpose every day.' ... To see how much (volunteers) give of themselves, that drives my staff and I."

For more information about the Foster Grandparent Program, call 341-3861 or e-mail samia@sarc.org.

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One man's effort to help the homeless

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Thu, 30 Jul 2009 18:25:00 +0000

"I have been through the fire and flood of life, the addiction and its misfortunes and I'm able to tell a story that people can relate to." -Carlton Mobley, 51

Outreach gives him 'purpose-driven life'

by Shannon Barry
Milpitas Post

Posted: 07/29/2009 03:20:37 PM PDT

Carlton Mobley doesn't hesitate to begin a story he has recounted countless times. It is one he has shared with those feeling lost, abandoned or struggling to clean up their act along life's way. And he makes it quite clear from the beginning: "I have no shame to tell you about my struggle."
Mobley's life began with a rocky start. He was one of seven children raised by his mother in a gang-infested area in South Philadelphia, Pa. He spent countless days of his youth out of school working for a moving truck company to help raise money for his family. As a sophomore in high school, Mobley dropped out altogether.
Life was difficult, "but I always had morals, I always had a heart," he recalled.
Mobley said the ultimate heartache that drove him away from Philly was when his mother died of breast cancer. He joined the military at the age of 21; a chance to search for his identity while traveling all over Europe, including Germany and Greece.
It was abroad that he began to develop his leadership skills, earning ranks as squad leader for his combat unit. After finding his place in the world, Mobley decided to embark upon another journey.
"I told my brother I was going to California one day and I finally did," he said. Mobley has a brother and sister living in Milpitas and another brother living in Stockton.
He got caught up in the ecstasy of a new life, elated past the point of no return and began to engage in risky behavior. He constantly stayed out until allhours of the night, snorting cocaine, going to clubs and chasing girls. Before long, his hopes of living a California dream turned to a nightmare. And after years of self-recovery from a drug addiction, it was one that came back to haunt him again later.
Eventually, Mobley married a cardiologist and aerobic kickboxing instructor after they dated for five months. They moved to Hayward where he had "a brand new house, a brand new car, a new life and a job that was five minutes from (their) house," Mobley said.
But there's one thing he didn't leave behind.
"I was clean and sober," he said. "I was struggling, but I felt good doing it. I was believing a lie that I was OK."
Mobley now cites his inability to go through the proper programming to battle his addiction as the ultimate downfall of tapping into his strength at the time.
He hung out at bars, not wanting to return home to his strong-willed wife who was beginning to grow concerned over his increasingly erratic behavior.
Drinking wasn't really his thing so Mobley wasn't concerned. The way he viewed it at the time was simple: "It was just a substitute."
But after 30 days of having a beer while seeking guidance from strangers at bars, he became a full-blown alcoholic.
"It ruined my life," he recalled. The couple went to counseling, split and he moved in with James, his brother living in Milpitas. In March 2008, after losing work because of a struggling economy, he relapsed into drugs as a "way out." It was then that his relationship with his brother began to fall apart.
"I created a cloud of dust in a trusted family," he said.
Mobley ended up leaving his brother's home to instead spend nights unsheltered, sleeping along train tracks. His brother supported Mobley through his long and difficult addiction. He paid people to find him "down the tracks he refused to walk down" so he could offer a shower, hot meal and above all else comfort.
Once Mobley finally decided to wise up, life had caught up with him.
"I said, 'Wait a minute, I'm 47 years old,'" Mobley said. "By that time it was too late for me to catch up with that last train."
With the support of his brother and San Jose Police Department Officer Ted Ramos, Mobley began walking the road to recovery instead of waiting for the next train.
"There are so many people who said, 'You can do it,' and I was the only one holding myself back," Mobley recalled.
Since then, he has reunited the trust in his family through a number of different accomplishments. He graduated Prop36, the Substance Abuse and Crime Prevention Act, and enrolled in EHC Lifebuilders transitional housing for veterans at the Boccardo Regional Reception Center in San Jose. While at the center, he has been able to access services, including checking employment in the computer room, attending Alcoholics Anonymous meetings and receiving support from staff.
Mobley is now entrusted with a leadership role at the center as a junior advocate in the veterans program.
"It's a wonderful job to be able to help people because I forget about my situation," he said. "Some people, they're not approachable because they're in a situation where they feel hurt or left out and abandoned and I've been through that."
Since Mobley can't change the past, he uses his experience to reach out to them instead.
"I have been through the fire and flood of life, the addiction and its misfortunes and I'm able to tell a story that people can relate to," he said. "And those who haven't been through it they can say, 'Oh that's what it was like.'"
Even though Mobley has made it through leaps and bounds, he continues to "live more than just one day at a time."
"I have goals, I have dreams," he said. "I can't afford to allow things to become an obstacle." That is why for the last two years Mobley has been writing an autobiography about his life, "Treasures of the Heart."
Mobley is on a quest to get his book published; continue supporting his three children, especially his youngest 17-year-old son; and keep moving forward.
"The thing about it that really brings a tear to a smile is when I look back and remember what my brother had told me," on his birthday June 12, Mobley recalled. "'You have finally made it to 51. No one thought you were going to make it this far.' And he was serious when he said that. That lets me know without a shadow of a doubt, I have a purpose-driven life and my purpose in life is to show people that they can make it. Because if I can make it, you can make it. ... Each day that I lay my head down, I've done something to where I can say it was a good day. Thank god for the day."

County would save on services through permanent housing
Even though Mobley has a guaranteed place to rest his head each night through EHC's veterans program, others aren't as fortunate. Each day, people line up at the organization's Boccardo Regional Reception Center in San Jose in the hopes of receiving shelter at the facility. People are selected to stay at the facility through a daily lottery drawing that usually begins around 3:15 p.m.
According to Jennifer Van Every, EHC director of communications, there are approximately 170 beds in the shelter.
"More people need beds than they can usually provide," she said.
Last quarter, the organization saw a 12-percent increase in need, something Van Every attributed to the economic downturn because there is now a combination of the "newly homeless" and chronically homeless (those people who have been homeless for at least a year or three periods during four years).
According to results that were released from Santa Clara County's 2009 Homeless Census and Survey, in the early mornings of Jan. 26 and 27 (when the census was conducted) there was a total of 7,086 homeless people in Santa Clara County. Although this represents a decrease of 2 percent since the last count in 2007, the number of chronically homeless persons has risen significantly, by 35 percent, from 1,680 to 2,270, during this same timeframe.
Supervisor Don Gage, who is co-chair of the county's "Destination: Home" program, said we are spending an estimated $60,000 a year on the average homeless person with a mental illness. That money goes toward services, shelters and emergency rooms visits, where they often go just to get out of the cold. Providing permanent housing changes that number to $16,000 annually.
Michelle Ogburn, EHC's One-Stop Homeless Prevention Center program manager, said she is not surprised by these numbers. She explained that if anyone were to hang around the center long enough, they would notice the constant use of police officers and ambulances.
"It's not the right focus for government dollars," Van Every said. "If we don't take care of them now, we will have to eventually. ... Let's try to end homelessness, not maintain it."
Since being implemented in December, Ogburn said the One-Stop program has helped place 114 chronically homeless people. Pictures of these faces, from all walks of life, are displayed proudly on a bulletin board at the site. Many of the people that have been placed, Ogburn explained, were previously on the streets for years. She referred proudly to one client who found a home after being homeless since the 1970s.
Although she said these results are impressive, there is a continued need to solving the issue of homelessness with the ever-growing pool of people losing their homes during the economic downturn.
On Monday, a 92-degree day, a line of people formed swiftly at the Boccardo Center, beginning to wrap around the corner of the building.
"Two years ago when it was warm out, not this many people were waiting for emergency shelter," Van Every said. "It is a reflection of the economic crisis."
With unemployment nearing 12 percent in Silicon Valley, it seems no one is immune to the possibility of homelessness.
"People feel misfortune can only be upon those who slip up but ... you get caught up in life situations that become a burden to you," Mobley said.
"Everyone's not crazy, just a little unwell," he said of the homeless population. "People have a stereotype for being in the shelter but it catches the best of us. We're just one paycheck away from (ruin) with so many people losing their jobs."

If you need assistance
If you are homeless, at risk of homelessness, know someone who is or would like more information on EHC programs, e-mail help@ehclifebuilders.org or call 539-2100, option 1. Walk-ins are also available, 8:30 a.m. to 5 p.m. Monday through Friday, at the Boccardo Regional Reception Center located at 2011 Little Orchard St., San Jose.

You may also find assistance or information at these places:

Bay Area Shelter Hotline: 1 (800) 7-SHELTER
Bay Area Homeless Alliance: www.baha.org
California Runaway Hotline: 1 (800) 843-5200
Gateway Assessment Center (drug/alcohol screening): 1 (800) 488-9919
Santa Clara County Mental Health Department: 1 (800) 704-0900
Second Harvest Food Bank Food Connection: 1 (800) 984-3663

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This is the second in a two-part series about Santa Clara County's 2009 homeless census results.

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Organization humanizes 2009 homeless census

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Thu, 23 Jul 2009 21:31:00 +0000

"In the current economic climate, the threat of homelessness really is affecting everyone."-Ray Bramson, EHC Lifebuilders

by Shannon Barry
Milpitas Post

Posted: 07/22/2009 02:38:55 PM PDT

Milpitas residents may not witness people struggling with chronic homelessness on an everyday basis along their city's streets. But with Silicon Valley's unemployment rate reaching an all-time high of 11.8 percent last month, Ray Bramson said fewer people are immune to the growing threat.

Bramson, director of development for EHC Lifebuilders in Milpitas, met as a chance to humanize the recent statistics and results behind Santa Clara County's 2009 Homeless Census and Survey. The census was conducted in the early mornings of Jan. 26 and 27, and found a total of 7,086 homeless people in Santa Clara County. Although this represents a decrease of 2 percent since the last count in 2007, the number of chronically homeless persons (those people suffering long homeless episodes and a disabling condition) has risen significantly, by 35 percent, from 1,680 to 2,270, during this same timeframe.

"It's troubling because chronically homeless adults are the ones accessing community services more often," Bramson said, citing emergency rooms, ambulances and police. "Those are costly services to the community and these are people that have been out on the street for a long time and continue to rely on that."

Oftentimes, he said, such costly emergency outreach doesn't always help. According to Bramson, 83 people within the county died last year on the streets or in temporary housing.

"They were all homeless," he said. "It's a frightening reality. ... You can be homeless in a lot of different ways in this community. You can be couch surfing, sleeping in your car, staying in a motel. These are people that are episodically experiencing homelessness. They find shelter on a nightly basis as opposed to having a secured place to stay."

Bramson explained the most significant detail that leads to homelessness within the equation is the cost of Bay Area living.

"I mean, you think about it, to afford a fair market one-bedroom apartment in Santa Clara County, you need to be earning about $45,000 a year," he said.

Another challenge is created, he said, because the only growth in jobs right now are low-paying service jobs. Anyone earning minimum wage as a single provider is characterized as being below the federal poverty line for a family of four. So for a single-wage earner to be able to afford a one-bedroom apartment, Bramson said, this averages to at least 100 hours of work a week.

"It's out of reach," he said. "It is such a constant grind ... to bring in that income, that if you don't have it, it's terrifying."

Anecdotally, Bramson said, he sees the growing effects unemployment is having on the organization's network of shelters. The organization has nine sites throughout the valley that serve more than 10,000 people annually.

"People are flooding in the doors," he said.

At their Boccardo Regional Reception Center in San Jose, Bramson said people line up seeking a place to sleep for the night every afternoon by 3:30 p.m.

"There are more people seeking beds than we have to provide," he said.

Bramson said the need for shelter continues to grow with the ever-growing pool of people losing their homes during the economic downturn.

Beginning last winter and operating through March, EHC provided 400 beds of emergency shelter each night at its National Guard armories in Sunnyvale and Gilroy. This was up 37 percent, Bramson said, from the year before.

"In the current economic climate, the threat of homelessness really is affecting everyone," Bramson said. "More people than not live paycheck to paycheck in our community. A lot of people are fortunate to have family and friends in their own little network but it's amazing how fast you can burn through networks like that if you've lost your job and you've got a mortgage payment of three or four thousand dollars a month. You can only ask your friends and family to do so much. There is a point where it just breaks down."

He added that it is important to remember those who are suffering come from all walks of life.

"It's good for people to be aware there is no specific face and characteristics of what a homeless person is," Bramson said.

Last November, Bramson was visiting one of the armories when a client mentioned that he had lived in Santa Barbara for a stint. He later learned the man had lived there because he was attending Brooks Institute, where he eventually earned a bachelor of fine arts in photography. Years later, Bramson said, the man suffered head trauma caused from a car accident, began having seizures and could no longer work as a wedding photographer. The circumstances left him with a dwindling income, which led to his homelessness.

"There is this myth that a lot of people are homeless because they want to be," Bramson said. "I don't think anyone wants to spend a night in the freezing rain in December and suffer the detriments of exposure. ... People get a little bit dirty, they get a little bit tired but I think any one of us, if we had to spend a few nights out on the street, would look worse for wear."

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This is the first in a two-part series about the 2009 homeless census results. Next week's article will focus on clients served through EHC Lifebuilders.

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Library usage increases as unemployment rises

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Thu, 16 Jul 2009 21:51:00 +0000

"I think unemployment has definitely brought them here." -Darren Chan, president and chief executive of skilldoc

by Shannon Barry
Milpitas Post

Posted: 07/09/2009 02:37:06 PM PDT

Rosemary Valentin offers an intimate glimpse to a shatteringly high statistic. But nearly every day for the last couple months she has been heading to the Milpitas Public Library on North Main Street in the hopes of changing all this. She is one of more than 100,000 people looking for work in a recession-gripped economy. The Milpitas resident lives within Silicon Valley, an area that has the highest unemployment rate on record at 11.2 percent.

Valentin is motivated, against her odds. She explained enthusiastically that she was on her way out to take a call with a prospective employer. Even though her financial standing may turn around soon, she noted finding work has not come without patience and determination.

With a background in the medical field, Valentin used her experiences to work most recently as an employee for California Community Opportunities, a non-profit organization focused on serving people with severe to profound developmental disabilities.

After working with the company for a year, she became unemployed when work kept her from important personal obligations. She needed to visit her adult son and daughter, both single professionals living in the Philippines, but was restricted to a one-week vacation from work. The travel for the trip alone, she said, would have equated to two days. Once Valentin hit this brick wall, she quit her job voluntarily in order to devote an entire month overseas to help her children.

Since coming back from that trip, Valentin has been a frequent visitor to the library. She spends the majority of her time scouring the Internet and thumbing through newspapers for the latest job postings and advertisements.

"There are all the references you can get," she said about the library. "I have spent constant time looking here. It helps me a lot."

Valentin is not the only one who recognizes the benefits of libraries during the economic downturn.

According to Linda Arbaugh, the Milpitas community librarian, there has been a 12.2 percent increase in library usage from April 2009 versus April 2008 throughout the Santa Clara County Library system. In May 2009, there was a 9.2 percent increase from last year. Libraries designated as a part of the Santa Clara County Library system include the Bookmobile, Campbell, Cupertino, Gilroy, Los Altos, Milpitas, Morgan Hill, Saratoga, Woodland Branch and Vision Literacy.

The Milpitas library on its own, Arbaugh said, has seen a much more significant increase than the countywide numbers. In May, 65,254 people visited the library, up from 51,533 in 2008. The month before, 70,667 people used the library compared to 59,696 in 2008.

In addition, circulation at the branch has grown substantially. In May, 218,527 materials were checked out compared to 185,255 the previous year. In April, the number was up to 233,365 compared to 188,459 in 2008.

Arbaugh said many factors contribute to these significant rises. But she cited specifically the opening of the new facility in January. Compared to the previous location, there are upgrades across the board that allow the library to house more people. There are 289 parking spots, up from 75; 107 computers, up from 31; and 300 chairs available for readers. Ultimately, she said, the new facility located at 160 N. Main Street is three times the size of the previous facility.

Although there is no documented direction correlation between the economy and increased library usage, Arbaugh has seen telling trends.

She began to notice a 50-percent jump in people updating their resumes on the library computers approximately six months ago. It isn't that the library offers classes to help people with their resumes. These are just people, she said, who come in on their own to use the equipment in the hopes of turning their lives around.

Darren Chan sat among patrons working at tables located behind a group of computers on the second floor of the library this week. The Milpitas resident is also the president and chief executive of skilldoc, a company he created to help people tap into popular social network Web sites (like Facebook and MySpace) and other people's friends to find the perfect candidate for a job opening.

He looked up from his laptop every once in a while to glance at what people were viewing on the monitors. The library is a place that allows him to research Internet trends which is something that is a pertinent part of the job. As a telecommuter, Chan said it is important to find a facility that can act as an office and supply all the necessities, including a bathroom and table.

Chan was previously setting up shop at local Starbucks and Peet's locations. It wasn't until last week he "discovered" the library and began to use it as a quiet place to work on a regular basis.

Already, he has become fairly used to the facility and its patrons.

"He's a regular," Chan said, while pointing to a man sitting at a computer.

He explained that it is interesting for him to look around the room, observe the diverse makeup of people and discover the different reasons why they are there. More often than not, he said, they are either looking for jobs and housing or preparing for upcoming academic tests.

He said it is not hard to see the benefits of using the library, no matter what the circumstances are.

"Obviously I am employed, but if I needed a quiet place to look for a job I would come here," Chan said. "I think unemployment has definitely brought them here."

"What happens in Vegas gets divorced in Texas" - Aaron

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Mon, 23 Mar 2009 05:20:00 +0000

What some well-known people have to say about Vegas:

"Vegas means comedy, tragedy, happiness and sadness all at the same time." - Artie Lange

"With everything it has to offer, Las Vegas is an obvious destination for tourists, as proven by the over 40 million visitors the city welcomes per year." - Jon Porter

"There's just no quiet in Vegas." - Barry Manilow

"Nevada's one of the most conservative states in the Union, but you can do what you want in Vegas and nobody judges you." - Drew Carey

About a month and a half ago, my company sent a memo to all of its employees informing us that we each had to take a week off and (here's the kicker) unpaid. I'm not going to lie. It was quite a blow to take. I can't say I didn't see it coming, given the state of the economy and how few people actually pick up newspapers nowadays since virtually everything is online. That said, I decided to turn lemons into lemonade. How so?

Before I found out about the furlough, Aaron and I discussed taking a trip to Vegas for my 25th birthday in May. I had already put money aside in a separate "travel" savings account and began accruing vacation time in order to take the time off from work in May. Well, we decided to bump up the vacation a bit ... quite a bit in fact ... to March 19-21. We were able to save nearly $200 by bumping it up a month and a half. I know, it seems like a short amount of time to spend in Sin City, but when you are a Vegas Virgin (as I was), it is easy to cram as much as possible into your first trip to Las Vegas.

Of course, before we left, I planned accordingly. Thanks to the powers of Google, I was able to find a number of free entertainment in Vegas to make the trip a bit more reasonable and exciting. Afterall, Aaron and I aren't really huge gamblers. After some research, I put together an itinerary, knowing that we were limited on time. We hit most everything on our list, except the Sirens of TI show at Treasure Island, Volcano at the Mirage and Tao at the Venetian. It's not a big deal though. I do plan on going back and will need some new discoveries the next time I arrive.

Here are just a few highlights from the trip:

Off the plane from San Jose to McCarron Airport and turning $1 into $1.60. High roller. ;)

My first drink in Vegas was a water. My second, this yard-long margarita.

Watching the Viva Vision Canopy show at Old Las Vegas on Fremont Street. I will be spending more time here next time.

The Bellagio Fountains were fun to watch during the day ... but AMAZING at night.

It was pretty easy to find yard-long margaritas, but this is 88 0unces of PURE ROCK!

Watching the best free show in Sin City at the Venetian.

We didn't have a chance to go to the Tryst Club at Wynn, but we did experience the hotel's beauty, including this gorgeous waterfall.

Zumanity was everything I thought it would be ... and more. The right amount of sensuality and comedy. Incredibly skilled performers. Everything you could ask for in a show.

I did it again...

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Fri, 06 Feb 2009 21:21:00 +0000

"I've seen a lot of good people with disabilities, and they do amazing things. The funny thing is, I don't see a lot of people noticing it as much as other things. Some people don't know who Stephen Hawking is or even what the Paraolympics are, and they might know who a supermodel is. And no offense to the supermodels, but anyone can look beautiful with enough makeup. I've seen a lot of great people just because I am a little bit disabled. It makes you feel more able-bodied." -James Bohnett

...and went MIA. I do apologize. To be completely honest, I have been immersed in my work lately. I have been with SVCN and, more specifically, the Campbell Reporter, Saratoga News and Los Gatos Weekly-Times since mid-November. I have met a number of great people who continually motivate me in my life.

Here is just a peek at some things that have been published recently. I hope you enjoy them and, if you have the chance, please let me know what you think. Any input is valuable input.

*Monroe Middle School student James Bohnett is shown here wrestling able-bodied students. This is just one of many activities the 14-year-old has participated in during his life so far.
Read the article here

*The Saratoga Union School District has a special needs program that serves 187 students within the district. The program has helped break through barriers and teach "typical peers" empathy.
Read the article here

*When Don Stoner turned 81, he also celebrated another accomplishment: logging enough miles to circle the Earth. Here he is seen with his longtime running companion, Valee.
Read the article here

*"Little People, Big World" star Matt Roloff spoke to me during a phone interview a few weeks ago about the success of his show and living with dwarfism. Roloff will be in Saratoga on Feb. 12 for a seminar and I cannot wait to meet him in person.
Read the article here

Well, there you have it folks. I hope life is beautiful on your end. Expect to hear more from me now, even if it's just a link on what I have been working on. I believe that taking a look into the depths of someone works can reveal more about the person that a direct answer ... if that makes any sense. Sometimes the unanswered questions reveal the most about those involved. And lead for that much more for others to discover. Curiosity may have killed the cat, but it is what got me into my job in the first place. I thrive, and survive, answering questions and hearing people's life stories because of this.

Let's get ready to ROOMBA!

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Thu, 22 Jan 2009 07:22:00 +0000

"A human being is part of a whole, called by us the Universe, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings, as something separated from the rest--a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circles of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty." - Albert Einstein

I have to admit, when Aaron and I received a Roomba from his sister Sharrah for our new house at Chanukkah, I wasn't too happy about it. Not only did it freak me out because I initially felt like it was part of a secret clan of robots working on a covert mission to completely annihilate the human race (OK, maybe I still do), but I am one of the few people that actually enjoys vacuuming. I find it calming to focus on nothing more than cleaning the carpet. But that requires time, something I (among many) seem to have less of lately.

So when we moved into our townhome in the Woods and went out for our first spin to the local grocery store, we powered up the Roomba and watched it make concentric circles on the carpet while we turned off the lights and locked the front door. When we returned I was not only surprised that my pet rats hadn't been eaten and fridge wasn't completely empty ;) but the machine actually did a good job of vacuuming. It worked its way around every nook and cranny of the room to map out where it could and couldn't go to get the most effective cleaning done. Needless to say, I was impressed but still felt the need to be hesitant.

Now, a little more than two weeks later, I have vacuumed the upstairs rooms twice and roombad four times. I have to say, turning on the roomba before I go to sleep is nice. It is nice to know that I can sleep while the roomba is working. (Thank you roomba)

Lesson learned: Don't be scared to try new things. As long as you aren't letting go of your values, you open your mind and appreciate this great, big, world around you from different perspectives.

So now that I am a part of the technologically advanced society we have become thanks to our Roomba and my new crackberry Blackberry, here's something funny to share from the Internets. Enjoi!

"Jigsaw falling into place"

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Tue, 06 Jan 2009 21:31:00 +0000

"There are no extra pieces in the universe. Everyone is here because he or she has a place to fill, and every piece must fit itself into the big jigsaw puzzle." -Deepak Chopra

When I was writing an e-mail to a friend the other day, I realized the best way to explain my current predicament-and the big move-is with a simile: Putting together all the pieces in a jigsaw puzzle is much like trying to square away getting settled into a house.

This may not make much sense at first, but once you look at all the details, there doesn't seem to be a more perfect explanation. When you move into a house, you first want to start with the essentials like furniture, kitchenware, clothes, also known as the side and corner pieces in puzzles. As the space in your home is filled from these essentials that you cannot live without, the outline comes together. It is at this point later in the move,or puzzle, that you begin to fill in the blanks and add more color with decor, also known as the middle pieces in puzzles.

In a dwelling, and with a puzzle, it is not "complete" until all of the pieces are filled in and you can finally call it "home." That said, be it the essentials or decor, everything is just as important as the other to lead a fulfilling life ... but very little is needed to have a happy life.

The video below made perfect sense with what I was talking about and it is a beautiful song, so I figured why not. I hope you enjoy it!

2008 was nothing less than great!

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Mon, 29 Dec 2008 21:18:00 +0000

"Life isn't measured in minutes, but in moments.
Benjamin Button (Brad Pitt): 'I was thinking how nothing lasts, and what a shame that is.' Daisy (Cate Blanchett): 'Some things last.'" -The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

It is always hard to get back into the swing of the workweek after holidays. It is hard to explain but not working makes me even more tired than when I am consistently working 8-12 hours days. So this week is going to be particularly difficult considering I have the next few days to work, one day off for New Years and then back to work again Friday. I'm not commplaining but I just need to learn to let go a little bit more in order to also let go of the anxiety. I am a creature of habit, but this week is going to be full of changes, all of them good. I will be turning a new leaf so to speak.

To get the changes started, yesterday I purchased a new phone--a swanky BlackBerry Curve. I consider this an accomplishment because I RARELY buy things for myself even when I can afford it. I always feel tremendous guilt after such purchases, but the phone was not expensive at all and I needed to start up a new cell phone plan. It was part necessity, part desire and yet I still found it difficult to come to the decision. Shortly afterward, Aaron and I went to look at furniture for our new townhome (moving in Dec. 31) at CK Furniture. We fell in love with a couch and and struck a deal with the salesperson to get the couch/loveseat set with scotchguard. Needless to say, when we walked out of the store yesterday at 2 p.m., we both felt quite accomplished. We have made most of the arrangements for our move in a very responsible and yet timely manner, especially considering we get the keys to our townhome Dec. 31. I can't believe how soon this is. I won't lie, I'm stressing out. Mainly just because that is what I am good at (or tend to do), not because I am not ready with most of my things in storage since moving out of Sunnyvale in October. So since I will spend the new year focusing on the move into a new phase of my life and taking a large step in our relationship, I figured now is an appropriate time to reminisce about 2008.

It wasn't an easy year, not by any stretch of imagination, but it was one of my most valued years. I learned so much about standing on my own, the meaning of true love and what makes life worthwhile, including true friends and family. A huge appreciation is extended to those of you who stepped into my life, in one way or another. Sometimes it is the smallest person in our lives who can make the largest impact and I want to acknowledge this. We all have the ability to truly live if we WAKE UP and live in the moment.

Traveling to different places, attending various events and meeting new people really helped ground me. In the end I realized that no matter where I go, I always have a home. And for me, that home is where loved ones are. We are never lost with others. So rather than dwell on the negative, allow yourself to get swept in romantic notions every once in a while. It is a healthy thing to do to help you truly develop-and keep-a lasting peace of mind.

So as the year comes to an end, I extend my arm and clink wine, champagne or apple cider (enter your drink of choice here) glasses with all of you. And I cannot wait to see what next year holds in our many adventures. Have a safe new year spent in the company of those you love!

And if you happen to go to a movie before the year is out or in early 2009, just a suggestion: GO SEE "THE CURIOUS CASE OF BENJAMIN BUTTON."

It is a lengthy movie, but filled with amazing acting, a riveting story and beautiful makeup! The only reason I would suggest not seeing it in the theater is if you have a TWB (teensie weensie bladder) because it is hard to find just the appropriate time to take a break and, according to Aaron, it is a "three-peer."

Women reindeers rule

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Mon, 22 Dec 2008 19:23:00 +0000

My awesome co-worker, Marianne, sent this along and I just wanted to share it in the spirit of the holidays.

According to the Alaska Department of Fish and Game, while both male and female reindeer grow antlers in the summer each year, male reindeer drop their antlers at the beginning of winter, usually late November to mid-December. Female reindeer retain their antlers til after they give birth in the spring. Therefore, according to EVERY historical rendition depicting Santa's reindeer, EVERY single one of them, from Rudoplh to Blitzen, had to be a girl.
We should've known... Only women would be able to drag a big fat man in a red velvet suit all around the world in one night and not get lost.

Shine on

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Sat, 13 Dec 2008 18:04:00 +0000

"You don't have to steal someone's glow to shine." - Tirza Carr (Tirzaism)

The older I become, the more stressful the holidays seem to become. Even though I enjoy the "spirit" of giving, I can't help but feel like there is not enough time to offer the loved ones I want to see. This year is a little different than last because I have two days off as opposed to a week and a half. Although I could complain, I refuse to. Not only because I was lucky enough to find a job during this tough economic time, but because my mindset and what I am the most thankful for has finally caught up with me.

I have been a bit stressed out trying to schedule holiday partys and get togethers while getting through long days at work. While it would be easy for me to take my frustrations out on others, I am channeling my energy elsewhere ... into guitar, volunteering and playing with my pets.

So just remember, rather than trample one another for the perfect toy this holiday season, there are more important things to exert your energy on ... and more important things that people will remember you for in the long run.

Afterall, you don't have to steal someone elses shine to be able to glow. And a star glows more brightly in the night sky when surrounded by others.

A cute puppy story

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Mon, 08 Dec 2008 21:53:00 +0000

I wish I could say I wrote this, but I didn't. It doesn't mean that I enjoyed it any less though...I hope this sweet story leaves as much an impact on you as it did myself...

"A farmer had some puppies he needed to sell. He painted a sign advertising the 4 pups And set about nailing it to a post on the edge of his yard. As he was driving the last nail into the post, he felt a tug on his overalls. He looked down into the eyes of little boy 'Mister,' he said, 'I want to buy one of your puppies.'

'Well,' said the farmer, as he rubbed the sweat off the back of his neck, 'These puppies come from fine parents and cost a good deal of money.'

The boy dropped his head for a moment. Then reaching deep into his pocket, he pulled out a handful of change and held it up to the farmer.

'I've got thirty-nine cents. Is that enough to take a look?'

'Sure,' said the farmer. And with that he let out a whistle. 'Here, Dolly!' he called.

Out from the doghouse and down the ramp ran Dolly followed by four little balls of fur.

The little boy pressed his face against the chain link fence. His eyes danced with delight.
As the dogs made their way to the fence, the little boy noticed something else stirring inside the doghouse.

Slowly another little ball appeared, this one noticeably smaller. Down the ramp it slid. Then in a somewhat awkward manner, the little pup began hobbling toward the others, doing its best to catch up....

'I want that one,' the little boy said, pointing to the runt. The farmer knelt down at the boy's side and said, 'Son, you don't want that puppy. He will never be able to run and play with you like these other dogs would.'

With that the little boy stepped back from the fence, reached down, and began rolling up one le g of his trousers.

In doing so he revealed a steel brace running down both sides of his leg attaching itself to a specially made shoe.

Looking back up at the farmer, he said, 'You see sir, I don't run too well myself and he will need someone who understands.'

With tears in his eyes, the farmer reached down and picked up the little pup. Holding it carefully he handed it to the little boy.

'How much?' asked the little boy. 'No charge,' answered the farmer, 'There's no charge for love.'"

Dare to be yourself

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Mon, 08 Dec 2008 06:13:00 +0000

"In a world where you can be anything, be yourself."

There has been a reason for my absence lately and I apologize. I find solace in writing. My lack of it on my blog doesn't mean it has lessened. In fact, I have been writing more than ever lately and just haven't had time to write much on here. But now that I am beginning to get my life back in order, it is becoming easier and easier to get back to the simple joys in life, such as blogging. So, I have a new job with Silicon Valley Community Newspapers. I have been working in the Los Gatos office as a schools reporter for the Los Gatos Weekly Times, Saratoga News and Campbell Reporter. And even though I just began two and a half weeks ago, I am having a fabulous time. I can't help but wonder if it is just the "honeymoon" phase of having a job. But then I stop wondering. There is no point but to live in the present. And I have been doing it with more confidence and with more ease lately.

Being unemployed for three months makes me realize all of those things I took for granted when I was previously employed. So even though I have always had a very high work ethic, I feel like I am working that much harder lately. Only time shall tell. I remind myself not to get too excited. There is something to be said about staying grounded rather than on cloud nine. Although that is a fun place to be, it makes it difficult when you have to deal with a blow.

The most satisfying thing about my job is that I am not only happy about my workload and reporting, but also with the people I work with. They have already made me feel so welcome. And although it is going to take some time to feel completely comfortable, it is nice to know that I am in a place where I am comfortable being myself. That is one of the best parts in life. Being completely comfortable with yourself and finding people that are just as comfortable with you as well.

I appreciate all of those that are in my life. Not only do they nurture my talents and help build my character, but they teach me new lessons every day. Whether it is through something as simple as a conversation over lunch at BJ's, an extensive trip to another state for an IN-TENTS concert or the chance to rebuild relationships. As the year of the rat comes to a close, I realize just how wonderful it has been, even if I have endured some difficult situations.

Here are some other little critters I am thankful for in my RAT PACK:

The leader of the rat pack, Peaches.

The youngest member of the rat pack, seven-month-old Chandra.

The largest member of the rat pack, Stuart. Here he is, above, attempting to bring bubble wrap into the cage. Such a silly boy.

"Every passing minute is another chance to turn it all around." - Vanilla Sky

New extensive post - Under construction

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Fri, 05 Dec 2008 18:01:00 +0000

So I know that I have been negligent in posting new blogs. That said, I promise to have an extensive update by the end of the weekend. You can hold me to it! It has taken a while to get back into the swing of things, especially with a new every day routine. But that time is just around the bend. For now ... TGIF everybody!!!

"I rescued a human today"

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Fri, 21 Nov 2008 19:59:00 +0000

It is important to remember that we need pets just as much as they need us...

"If all the beasts were gone, men would die from a great loneliness of spirit, for whatever happens to the beasts also happens to the man. All things are connected. Whatever befalls the Earth befalls the sons of the Earth." - Chief Seattle of the Suquamish Tribe, letter to President Franklin Pierce

I rescued a human today:

"I rescued a human today.

Her eyes met mine as she walked down the corridor peering apprehensively into the kennels. I felt her need instantly and knew I had to
help her. I wagged my tail, not too exuberantly, so she wouldn't be afraid. As she stopped at my kennel I blocked her view from a little accident I had in the back of my cage. I didn't want her to know that I hadn't been walked today. Sometimes the shelter keepers get too busy and I didn't want her to think poorly of them.

As she read my kennel card I hoped that she wouldn't feel sad about my past. I only have the future to look forward to and want to make a difference in someone's life. She got down on her knees and made little kissy sounds at me. I shoved my shoulder and side of my head up against the bars to comfort her. Gentle fingertips caressed my neck; she was desperate for companionship. A tear fell down her cheek and I raised my paw to assure her that all would be well.

Soon my kennel door opened and her smile was so bright that I instantly jumped into her arms. I would promise to keep her safe. I would promise to always be by her side. I would promise to do everything I could to see that radiant smile and sparkle in her eyes.

I was so fortunate that she came down my corridor. So many more are out there who haven't walked the corridors. So many more to be saved. At least I could save one.

I rescued a human today."

Life is a highway

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Thu, 20 Nov 2008 06:29:00 +0000

"Man is the only animal for whom his own existence is a problem which he has to solve."

I know, I know. I have been neglecting that which is my blog. And rather than get in here and have enough time to type an update, I am really just taking the time to write a short apology. A new update will come within the next couple days. I promise. So don't go away folks! Here is just a little teaser of how life has been...

Peaches enjoying Boba tea from Tapioca Express.

I have never seen Peaches SO still as when this box of cheese wedges was right by her. Haha.

...I don't know how I ever lived without rats. They are absolutely adorable! And, if everything goes as planned, I should have two more additions to the cage Thanksgiving weekend. *crosses fingers* It has been far too long since Peaches had a cagemate. Poor sweetie. Although that may explain why she has been warming up to me lately. She has been giving me quite a share of ratty kisses lately, that's for sure.

OK, I admit, that was a weak excuse for an update. But I promise. More to come soon on my new job, the hunt for a new place, dog attacks, housesitting, volunteering and more. Oh the places I have gone, and the things that I have seen, to say the very very least.

"Life is a highway. I wanna ride it. All night long."

Taking one step forward and two steps back

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 21:56:00 +0000

"I know my country has not perfected itself. At times, we've struggled to keep the promise of liberty and equality for all of our people. We've made our share of mistakes, and there are times when our actions around the world have not lived up to our best intentions." - President Barack Obama

As President Barack Obama delivered his victory speech at approximately 9 p.m. Tuesday, Nov. 4, I continued refreshing CNN.com's local election coverage.

Although the presidency was on my mind when I awoke that morning, there was something troubling me far more. While news reported weeks prior that Mr. Obama was expected to win by a landslide, I wasn't so sure about Prop 8. And that is why, listening to his speech playing on the TV in the background, I paid more attention to the results coming in for Prop 8.

I eventually fell asleep at 12:15 after receiving a text message from a friend (working in a newsroom in Palo Alto) that with 52 percent of the votes counted, Californians voted 52-48 in favor of the ban against gay marriages. When I awoke the next morning, my boyfriend turned on his computer and gave me the bad news -- the ban had passed.

Tuesday was a monumental landmark in this nations history and I am proud of that. We were able to come together and elect our first black president. But, California (a state heavily in favor of Barack Obama) still voted against equality for all.

Wanting to take in the other arguments before Prop 8 passed, I visited the yes on Prop 8 web site. I listened to the arguments, but they still came across as weak. Those in favor of Prop 8 argue that gay marriage can destroy families and the tradition of marriage. In my mind, these "values" were destroyed a long time ago.

Families have been broken for a long time and divorce seems to be more common than a lasting marriage, from what I have witnessed in prior generations. And in a world that is overpopulated and in need of "unwanted" children to find a home, I would think that gay marriage could only better this situation.

It disgusts me. Disgusts me that we all seem to recognize that everyone is created equal, yet are unable to give others their earned respect.

So as the nation celebrates its first black president, just 143 years after ending slavery, let us remember to look and move forward. The fight for justice is neverending and it takes an entire community to make a difference.

"Oh what a night"

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 21:38:00 +0000

"A good compromise, a good piece of legislation, is like a good sentence; or a good piece of music. Everybody can recognize it. They say, 'Huh. It works. It makes sense.'" - Barack Obama

As many of you know, on Tuesday, Nov. 4, a monumental change was made. Our country stood tall and, most importantly, together to elect its first African-American President Barack Obama, hoping for change. As many newspapers and TV stations reported, voter turnout was HUGE (especially among the younger generations that generally opt out).

"Above: Some 100,000 people gathered in Chicago's Grant Park to hear Mr. Obama speak. For what he assuredly felt would be his victory speech on election night, Barack Obama chose the highly symbolic venue of Grant Park." (Source - Telegraph Media Group)

For a historial venue I was at just three months ago, it is obvious this was a huge step for mankind. Compare the picture above to the one below. Although both photos look like crowdshots for a rock concert, only one is.

Lollapalooza 2008 was crowded. "For the first time ever, they sold out all three days. That’s 75,000 people walking shoulder to shoulder for ten hours a day in 90-degree heat." (Source - Noeviltwin.com)

No matter who you voted for Nov. 4, the important thing is that you voted. There is no denying that you are now a part of history. I am sure you will never forget where you were, and where you stood, during election 2008.

The economic driving force

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Tue, 04 Nov 2008 07:10:00 +0000

"The trouble with unemployment is that the minute you wake up in the morning you're on the job." -Slappy White

It has happened. I have been unemployed for three months and have since had three interviews, each of them seemingly more successful than the last. Although this is promising, I have also been getting discouraged.

At an interview three weeks ago with a managing editor and executive editor of a newspaper, I arrived both prepared and confident. The interview went well and ended on a positive note. The next week I followed up with the executive editor about the available position and he informed me that I came neck to neck with another candidate, but did not receive the position. He apologized, emphasizing how neck to neck we were. After he told me this, I was informed that 30+ other candidates were to be informed of the decision that day as well. I know, it SHOULD make me feel good. Good that I was in the top two of 30+ candidates for a position. But it didn't. It reminded me of being in school ... You know, when you would receive a B+ as opposed to an A-. So close, but yet so far.

But all I can do is learn from my experiences and continue moving forward. I refuse to settle for anything less than I deserve. And for that reason, I have not taken a job to stay "busy." I figure, I have paid into the system and for the time being, the system can pay back to me. It is not like I am taking advantage of the situation. After all, I am freelancing articles (and reporting these earnings) to stay busy and keep my mind fresh. I may as well see my unemployment as a retreat. After all, I can't change anything ... no matter how much I may want. I am not the only one unemployed. In fact, recently it has seemed a rarity for those that have a job.

Let's face it. On a given WEEKDAY, driving around town I can't help but wonder, 'Why are there so many cars on the road?' Granted I am a person driving one of those cars, but can that many people really be unemployed? I have looked at the daunting statistics of recent unemployment rates (probably too many times), but I don't know if I have yet to truly comprehend it. It's true that many people have the benefit of working from computer (thank you technology), but again, this can't account for the number of others on the road. Any thoughts?

I just seem to be increasingly curious what is driving the average American's income if so many people seem to be driving the economy, and cars, so often during the day?

A polarized nation

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Wed, 22 Oct 2008 20:09:00 +0000

"All of us who are concerned for peace and triumph of reason and justice must be keenly aware how small an influence reason and honest good will exert upon events in the political field." -Albert Einstein

With the election now just 13 days away, I can't help but wonder ... what is going to happen when a candidate is chosen for office. Although I am growing hopeful that Obama will beat McCain and, more importantly, Palin ... there are other things that are troubling me.

When I headed to a wedding with Aaron last weekend, I saw quite a few number of Vote Yes on Prop. 8 signs. Yes ... really? For those who aren't aware, Prop. 8 is is an initiative measure on the 2008 California General Election ballot that will eliminate the right of same-sex couples to marry. I don't know about you, but I believe with all the problems plaguing our state and nation this shouldn't even be an issue. Another friend of mine recently traveled to SoCal and noticed the same trend - far too many Yes on Prop. 8 signs. Are we really that ignorant to history? Civil rights, women's suffrage --- have we already forgotten abou equality for ALL?

We all hold different opinions coming from a variety of different backgrounds and this is something I believe that makes this country such a beautiful thing. We are a melting pot of cultures, and ideas. But lately I have been wondering if we are able to effectively share and blend these different ideologies or if it is like trying to mix oil and water - impossible.

There is no doubt that tension is increasing and hostility is raising as the countdown continues. I don't recall the last time I have had a meal, let alone coffee, with a loved one without politics coming up. Not to say this is a bad thing. This is an important election, no matter what your values are, and voter turnout is sure to be high. But maybe we should take more time to truly listen to one another rather than wonder how we can "win" a debate.

Afterall, maybe that is what is so "wrong" with this country to begin with. We have forgotten how to address public policy without ever knowing (or caring) which party other people are in. As a society it seems our politics have become far too polarized.

Now she's climbing a stairway to heaven

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Fri, 17 Oct 2008 21:39:00 +0000

"We call them dumb animals, and so they are, for they cannot tell us how they feel, but they do not suffer less because they have no words." -Anna Sewell

August 26, 2007 - October 16, 2008
Honeydew (Piddle-dew), my beloved ratioli
There will always be a place for you to rest on my shoulder and you will remain forever in my heart.

Just three days before my beloved Honeydew passed away, she was diagnosed with a boney tumor. Since taking her to the vet last September, I noticed that her left hind leg was swollen, and continued to swell. So she went to the vet again Monday. Incredibly rare in pet rats, the vet informed me that this type of tumor releases toxins into her body, as well as calcification growths onto her leg that eventually break off and are absorbed in other parts of her body, including her lungs, making it difficult for her to breathe.

Monday and Tuesday night, I cradled her in my arms. She was lethargic and exhausted, but she still took the time to lick me; a ratty's way of showing true warmth and compassion towards its owner. And Wednesday night, I played with her and Peaches (her sister) for what would be the last time.

Even though this pocket pet was only in my life for a little over a year, she made me realize things that I had never even thought about. Honeydew's heart was larger than could be contained in such a small, furry body. She persevered, as long as she could, until the very end. I miss her dearly, but will always remember her. She was considered precious to all that met her, if even for just a brief second.

But I am happy that I could teach her and Peaches to climb ladders before she passed away. After all, now she can make it up that stairway to heaven.

Great expectations

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Wed, 08 Oct 2008 01:16:00 +0000

"Life is so constructed that an event does not, cannot, will not, match the expectation." - Charlotte Bronte

Last Friday, I attended a Sigur Ros concert at the Greek Theatre in Berkeley with my friend Diana. It was packed. Nearly three years ago and pretty far before they were popular in the United States, I attended a Sigur Ros concert in San Diego. And it was phenomenal. Needless to say, because of the concert that was held Oct. 5, 2005, I was anxiously awaiting the performance. Nearly three months before the concert this year, I purchased their newest CD, Med Suc I Eyrum Vid Spilum Endalaus, and played it out beyond belief. While initially I wasn't as impressed with it as previous albums, it grew on me.

So when we sat down and watched the band blow the audience away, my mindset eventually changed. Don't get me wrong, I had a great time. But what can I say? I think I was shocked when my friend and I were told to be quiet. Where were we again? That's right. A concert of all places! I know that watching Sigur Ros is often like meditating and can be a very spiritual experience, but we had a very different way of appreciating the music than the crowd that was there.

Days later, I still can't quite figure out what made the concert equate to such a letdown. It could have been the shushes by other audience members, the rain that began pouring down at the end of the concert (finalizing my mood) or how much my mentality has changed within the last few years. But maybe, above all else, it was the high expectation I had going into the scenario. It just goes to show that it is easy to let yourself down when you set high expectations. Be open for everything and for nothing. Never settle. But never ask for too much. Sometimes it is best to merely exist, content with every moment presented to you, no matter how it may turn out.

A brief clip of Sigur Ros performing at the Greek Theatre last week.

Winning the rat race, figuratively speaking

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Wed, 08 Oct 2008 00:46:00 +0000

"Animals are such agreeable friends - they ask no questions, they pass no criticisms." - George Eliot

When I signed up for a storage unit today at Lock-it-Up-Self-Storage in Milpitas, I realized just how much my love for ALL animals has affected my day-to-day decisions, even those I give very little thought about.

As I was going through the contract and paperwork with the manager, he began to address a piece of paper stating the acknowledgment of rat poison in my unit. Because they know very little about what other people store, they keep rat poison in each of the units to avoid pests wandering through your valuables. Understandable. But my instinct was to sign the line asking them to take the poison out (And I did). The last thing I would want to see when walking into my unit is a dead mouse or rat considering I have two pet rats I lovingly care for each and every day.

It may seem silly to others, but being a rat mama for just a year and two months, I feel nothing but affection for the rodents that enter my day to day life. May we all find something we feel so passionate and lovingly about. I guess that is one of the most important things in life; the bond between different beings. But for me, that is reaching past human boundaries and into the lives of animals. And just because their needs are seemingly simple, despite their lack of ability to talk with us, doesn't mean they should be neglected of their primal desires. It is the least we can pay attention to as their pet owners. And taking that knowledge or compassion outside our living quarters is only natural, even if the stereotype of the creatures (nasty, sewer rats) may seem more "disgusting" than those you embrace every day. Never forget, beauty is in the eye of the beholder. So do not scoff at those that can find beauty in this world. After all, that is one of the most important things to do, especially when life becomes difficult. There is always something to live for, as long as you are willing to acknowledge it.

Smiling, and strumming, in trouble

shannonebarry@gmail.com (Shannon Barry) — Fri, 03 Oct 2008 19:50:00 +0000

"I love those who can smile in trouble, who can gather strength from distress, and grow brave by reflection. 'Tis the business of little minds to shrink, but they whose heart is firm, and whose conscience approves their conduct, will pursue their principles unto death." - Leonardo da Vinci

As I have mentioned before, playing guitar is extremely therapeutic for me. Not only does it give me an escape from my worries of unemployment (despite the number of jobs I continue to apply for each day), but quite simply - it allows me to escape (no matter how brief) away from War, hate, deceit and pain. These things do not exist in music.

When I pick up my guitar, all that exists are the chords, note and timing on the sheet music in front of me. And it is truly a beautiful thing.

So last week, when I received a 30-day notice from my landlady, I talked to her rationally about the situation. But rather than remain angry for the duration of the week (and remaining month that I live here), I channeled that anger. Every day, I escaped to the world of music. And apparently it paid off. On Wednesday, I walked into my guitar teacher's class confident of my abilities. I knew I had spent so much time playing "Fake Plastic Trees", that even if I screwed up a little bit, I could move forward. And I did. I played the song ... the entire way through, as my teacher played the melody with me. It may not seem like much of a feat, but for anyone that has heard the song, it is long. And although it isn't very complicated, long songs used to intimidate me. Not anymore.

After I played the song, my teacher set his guitar down, paused for a brief second and said, "That is the most confident I have heard you play a song, ever."

It felt good. Not just good on the superficial level of completing a song and playing it well. But wonderful to know I channeled my negative energy and turned it into something beautiful. Because although I escaped into another world (one of rapture and beautiful harmony) when I was in pain, I was able to bring that beauty back to this world. And it is a truly satisfying feeling being able to share with others my learned life lessons, even if those lessons came from activities like playing a musical instrument. After all, you don't have to step into a church or temple to learn about yourself or grow stronger. There are numerous opportunities to experience heaven right here on Earth.